so i think i met a guy that i actually really like
and now i'm all nervous because a) if i fuck it up it matters and b) if i don't fuck it up and then commit myself i could end up hating him and c) he's probably a bad influence on my life- some hard drug use and d) i don't know if i actually like him or if i'm just desperate and i don't know it.
when i think about him objectively though, he has characteristics that i appreciate and approve of and enjoy, like he enjoys dancing and is in a band, and he doesn't have characteristics that annoy me, like passiveness and modestness.
of course there are cons to him but really nothing too horrible, unless he gets seriously addicted to hard drugs.
gaaaah. i don't know what to do. he also lives an hour and a half away from me, in allentown. i need to stop thinking about him.  ¶ 3:53 PM 0 comments