this is a picture of me and my best friend michal at the rave (urban dk) last friday, once we were coming down off the e and the vicodin had caught up with us.
it was a really good party.  ¶ 10:40 AM 0 comments

  I'm in a sad, Little Prince mood.
  ¶ 2:29 PM 0 comments

  Mmmm I want a burrito.
Hopefully I'll get one.  ¶ 12:15 PM 0 comments

  So I'm back at school.
It feels good to be back.
And just a little weird.
I mean, I am happy to be back. And good news is, my family and I finally decided that I can come back next year- yes!
But then again, this is just the same old shit.
Y'know?
Nothing changed. And I'm still in love with that guy, ugh.  ¶ 7:05 AM 0 comments

  galit NOW  ¶ 1:41 PM 0 comments

  learning to drive=fun!
yay!
i love driving
so much fun
my dad let me drive home from the office- probably not a good idea- lots of big roads- i only made one mistake- wheee!!!!
car is intact, too.
i rock!  ¶ 1:03 PM 0 comments

  "it takes a lot of love these days to keep your heart from freezing, to keep your spirit free, my oh my"
yeah so those david grey lyrics are a little sappy, i know, but right now they feel pretty important to me, in that i'm feeling a distinct lack of love-
not complaining about my wonderful friends, they're great and i'm grateful-
but seriously my patience is beginning to wear thin- i was discussing this with my friend lily, and she knows what i mean, she's in the same position as me; having close friends is one thing- but when will i get to take it to the next level with someone?
feeling lost (so daaazed and confuuuused)  ¶ 8:53 AM 0 comments

  Its really fun playing cool older person with the fifteen year old kids that were hanging out at my pizza place.
That's right, I said my pizza place. I own it.
Hehe, we walked in there w/ our hookah and beers and oh we were so cool.
It was sweet.
We met this kid my friend used to go to school with. He sold us some pot brownies.  ¶ 8:27 PM 0 comments

  So my best probable situation for next year is to spend fall semester at Simon's Rock (woot!) and then go to Umass.
Not a bad college over all.
It's fucking huge, but then again, it has a great art school (it's where my mom got her Masters in Art Ed) and it's part of the five college consortthingyium so that means I can take classes at Smith and Amherst and all that, which is awesome.
Plus it's close to Simon's Rock, and I'll have a car, which means I can visit on weekend.
Fuck yeah.
Damn, I don't want to leave Simon's Rock.
But it will be nice to get into a bigger pond, with lots more fish.
Fuck this not getting any ass.  ¶ 6:00 AM 0 comments

  feelin' a little crazy and wound up but tomorrow i'm (finally) getting my learning permit so my parents can finally start teaching me house to drive, the anal bitchs, and guess what this summer i'm gonna get a toyota corolla for 1200 bucks that my uncle has and he's gonna put in a new clutch and everything for me so i gotta learn how to drive stick as well as make 1200 bucks, should be too hard in a whole summer just gotta not spend it all on drugs, or if i do i just gotta make it all back anyway so what i was saying about tomorrow my best friend is gonna have the car all day tomorrow (it's hers and her sisters) and she's gonna pick me up and we're gonna take lots of pictures (i took pictures all day today of my other best friend and her two eight year old twin sisters and random middle school boys playing basketball at the park and a really cool house) and then go work out because we're both fatsos and need to lose weight
yeah a little wound up
just a bit
hmmmm  ¶ 9:03 PM 0 comments

  Home again.
Decision making time.
What to do next year?!
What to do this summer?
Girls or boys?
It's all one big question.
Feeling a distinct lack of answers.
Want to just do art and forget all of it.

And yes, Tim is causing trouble but not the kind you'd think, I just can't get him outta my head. Gotta give him props for that, this is the first time I've had a crush that lasted once I got to know him as a friend.  ¶ 5:47 AM 0 comments

  tim
how
do
you
get
in
every
body's
head?
tim
why
won't
you
get
out
of
my
head?  ¶ 9:54 PM 1 comments

  Since when can quails fly at the height of the average human head?
Correct me if I'm wrong, but don't they run on the ground?  ¶ 9:40 AM 0 comments

  shula redos stacey new weird america likes the smell of darkroom chemicals
new weird america walks through the woods in the dark without a flashlight
new weird america sits in trees drinking from a handle of capn mo making animal noises at the full moon
new weird america enjoys mangos more than candy
new weird america says WHYYYYYYYYY
new weird america wears long underwear in the winter
new weird america always goes for the bad boys
new weird america picks up blue-stemmed closed-cap monolithic shrooms
new weird america would rather be thought stupid than pretentious
new weird america says FUCK YOU! with a grin  ¶ 7:21 PM 1 comments

  I really really really really want to transfer to an art school.
Could I do it? Yeah I think I could build a portfolio good enough.
Should I do it? I don't know.
I can always go back to school later and get a BA.
I don't know. What would I do with a BFA? I could get an art ed degree but I don't know if I really want to do that.
Unless I taught at a school like Simon's Rock where I could teach studio art and humanities courses....
Hmm....
Gah.
I'm several days ahead of my work in both ceramics and photography. I'm also considering blowing off an essay for my politics course, even though I love the teacher and wouldn't want to disappoint her. But we had a paper due for her last week too.... this weekly paper thing has got to go- too much fucking work for one class in a school like this one.  ¶ 4:09 PM 0 comments

  I live on a campus where there are support meetings for conservatives.
Support meetings.
You know, like AA or Victims of Childhood Abuse United.  ¶ 9:04 AM 0 comments

  I'm getting slowly but surely sucked into the darkroom.
I mean, my time is getting quickly eaten up into the darkroom.
Yes! Got good photos today of a difficult person!
Yes! Made one good print tonight!
And this campus is going through a scary trend... people are (GASP) quitting and/or cutting back on marijuana.
wait, no more all day every day? no more morning blunts? no more between-class-bowls? no more before lunch bowls? no more before dinner bowls? no more just-finished-class bowls? no more lets-do-art bowls? no more its-a-beautiful-day bowls?
what?
this is a huge shock for me, as i'm sure you can tell.
but i need to do it too, unfortunately.  ¶ 7:28 PM 0 comments