Sometimes there is so much love in me, for the people and the earth around me, that it hurts.

Sometimes there is so much sadness in me, for the people and the earth around me, that it hurts.

Usually I hurt.

So good and so bad.

Sometimes I forget that I hurt, and that is not a good sign.

I will not let the hurt keep me from changing this world, I will use the hurt as my motivator, and it is a strong one.

When I forget that hurt, I can no longer affect change, and then that hurt is replaced by shame and guilt.

Shame and guilt are worse than the hurt.

I do not know what makes me different from all those who do not feel the same way.

I believe that they have just numbed themselves.

The media has numbed them.

Their parents have numbed them.

The vastness of our world and the size of our population have numbed them.

Numbed them to both the love and the sadness.

Sometimes I think that I cannot love, and then I remember that I just love too much.

Too much for one person.

I lie sometimes, I may be lying now, but this is how I feel.
I do not deny it, but sometimes I let others ignore it. This makes life easier for me.

The easy way is the copout, but the other path is sometimes too difficult for me.
I think it is usually too difficult for most of the people in this world.

Ease is meaningless.

Worth is not easy.

I am not easy.

Freedom is not easy.

I am a Freed Woman.

I love it, and it hurts.

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