haha fuck do i feel schizo now but i decided that there is nothing to be in a bad mood about. everyone has their own way through life and it's gonna connect to mine in whatever way its supposed it. it's probably not something i have any control over. so might as well enjoy it right? then again i might have complete control over it just by thinking about it, but i never know, right? and any control i hope to exert over the path of my life would have to come from my true unadulterated desires so the energy released upon the world is pure and directed, and since i have no clue what those desires are then i really can't complain.
and if what was making me feel bitchy was something that brings someone else new and interesting happinesses than really i'd be just a fucking bitch to go on feeling bad about that.
i like being not a bitch. i like being happy.
life works.  ¶ 9:40 AM