i just gotta say word to stacey's most recent post.
fuck yeah.
that's how i try to live my life every day and i don't know if i'm succeeding but i still feel good
and even though in that post he talks about drugs as part of the passionate lifestyle and right now i'm taking a break from drugs it doesn't matter because it's all in the attitude. i'm not taking a break from the drugs because i'm afraid they're controlling me i'm taking a break from the drugs to assert my control on the drugs and to make sure my life gets on track so i'll have the money in the future to do all the drugs i want to.
i don't need to use drugs to feel happy and i don't need therapy and support and psychiatric medications to stop using the drugs.
i pride myself on being able to handle myself in any mental or emotional situation.
i will never be one of those tripping kids who needs to be babysat and talked down and comforted because there is nothing inside me that i can't control and deal with on my own no matter what state my head is in.
No matter what state my head is in i can always deal with reality when it needs to be dealt with.
(although that one time was an exception when i was on three and a half hits of acid and had to book it the fuck out of the daniel arts center when i walked in after running around in the freezing cold wind having adventures and missions and floating away in a little wooden yurt and immediately two campus authority figures appeared on either side of me and gave me that scared i know you're fucked up on something that i would never dream of touching and i scorn you because of it look)  ¶ 6:41 AM